It's been awhile...

Yes, it's been awhile since I have written anything but I have been very busy at home.  First, we were moving and I was packing and then we weren't moving and then I was unpacking.  Confusing, yes, I know but anyway I am here now.

I do have some great news though.  About 2 weeks ago I went back to my nutritionist and I had another BIA assessment and my results showed that I have lost 4 pounds in body weight, body fat is down by 4.9%, and my muscle mass has increased by 1.5 pounds.  She was very impressed by these numbers and said that she does not see losses like this very often.   Needless to say, I was very happy when I left her office that day and it felt good to know that I was doing something right.

But unfortunately, those good feelings were short lived.

I think that I may be starting to go through my "change of life."  I hate with everything that I have in me to even admit that as I am also not dealing with aging very well.  You know, when the Bible says that "life is but a breath," it really is true!  I cannot believe that I may be here at this point in my life.  Where did the time go?

The first sign I had was skipping a period last month, and no, I am not pregnant!  Oh, could you imagine!  Me, pregnant?  At this point in my life?  Ooooh! Never mind, let's move on.  Anyway, I should be having another period right around about now, and you guessed it right - nothing.  Aunt Rose has not been coming to visit.  I am sad and weepy, I feel like I am going crazy and if that's not bad enough, absolutely everything is wrong with my life. I feel like there is no hope and I have been tearing myself to shreds.  As a result I have no motivation to do anything.  Wow!  Quite a bit of a difference in my feelings as compared to leaving the nutritionists office 2 weeks ago and feeling like I had the world by the tail!

Well, I guess I am going to have make a doctor's appointment and get my hormone levels checked out.  I have decided though that if necessary I will use Bio identical hormones.  I will not use anything synthetic and I will not suffer through like some people I know have done.  I cannot go on feeling like this.  I feel miserable and I don't want to make everyone else around me miserable.  Also, these sad and negative feelings do nothing to help me in my lifestyle change endeavors.  I don't feel like working out, I don't want to get dressed, and I don't care about eating well.  Not good.  Not for what I want to do anyway, and if I want to see the same gains the next time I see my nutritionist I better do something about this.

Hopefully, next time I write it will be all good.